Life is still the same, lots of work and not enough p(l)ay. My life lately has consisted of work, getting stupid over boys, missing my best friend, and watching a lot of TV (having a complete series on demand and/or DVD pretty much rules my life). I quit my job at National Geographic at the beginning of the month and started a new job as a personal assistant. My boss is amazing and her kids are awesome and her husband has a phobia of buttons (seriously). It's pretty much the best job I've ever had, for sure. I get paid to drive an Escalade and a Mercedes S550, come on. On a semi-job-related note, my Nancy Botwin side-hustle is taking off (I keep reminding myself that I aint shit because it sells itself) but it's kind of ruining my social life. Not to mention my romantic life is perpetually pathetic, but that's enough of that. Taking's Brittany's advice and IGNORING. Other than that, I don't have much else other than I miss my best friend (who will be in Florida NEXT WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!)!


But anyway! Here are pictures! I haven't posted pictures in fucking forever, so some of these are kind of old.

( PEEEEEKTURES )

Annnnnnd I'm spent.

Oh Livejournal, you're just as dead as Myspace. I'm updating Tumblr way more than Livejournal, but
I do feel bad neglecting the shit out of this (besides reading my friends page). So, uhh, here's a recap on life:

~ I really hate my full-time job but I just started a part-time job (weekend receptionist at a real estate office) that is pretty awesome so far. It's a floating position so it's really not a set schedule at all, but whatever. $10 an hour to sit in a comfy chair and answer phones and lurk the internet and drink free coffee? Yes plz.

~ I'm on a Nancy Botwin side-hustle and I have a crush on the boy that gets it for me. He thinks I'm pretty sweet too, but he lives kind of far and neither of us really want things to be official, for one reason or another. In the meantime, he gets me a good deal and watches The Wire with me, so no complaints.

~ I also have a crush on a different boy (who, of course, lives just as far as the other one). I was under the impression he wasn't even interested up until this weekend, and now I'm just confused about him all over again. He's dreamy but there's also a ton of reasons why it's not worth my time. I'm not getting ~emotionally invested~ by any means, but we'll see what happens.

~ I'm going to Gainesville with my aunt and grandma to see my brother on Friday. I'm stoked to go see my brother, but the 6 hour carride with three dogs will not be a fun time for anyone.

~ I'm going to Atlanta for 5 days in October and I can't even explain how excited I am. I need to see my best friend so, so badly. I have so many things I want to see and do, but I could sit around Brittany's living room the whole time and just shoot the shit and I'd be totally satisfied. So overdue for a long chat with that girl.

~ I found out I'm going to Israel for two weeks in March! Pretty fucking stoked on that. Time to start learning some useful Hebrew phrases!

I don't really know what else to say. My life is really boring but I guess that's not necessarily a bad thing. I feel pretty detached from a lot of my friends, but whatever; point taken, I guess. All I know is that I have to grind to shine, so I am trying to do what it takes to get things to go my way. Determination and hard work is the key to success, so it's time to step my game up. I refuse to make excuses for myself and I am taking responsibility for my actions. I'm just trying to plan my moves and get a gameplan together so I can make something better of myself. I deserve more than this small town and small people and small minds, but I have to realize that no one can make it happen for me except me.

I had a nice day with a nice boy yesterday. He bought me lunch and let me drag him around to a bunch of thrift stores and said he's going to take me to the zoo next week. I don't really know what to make of it, but that's okay. He thinks I'm the bee's knees (his words, not mine) and of course I still haven't decided if I even like him. But I think I do. Or at least I think I might.

But one thing that I am sure of is that I absolutely cannot wait until July 31st. Atlanta, best friend, Six Flags, Asher Roth, and Brittany's birthday? Exploding with excitement!

Life is what you make it and I'm trying to make mine the best I can. Trying to take things one day at a time.

I don't even know why I have a Livejournal anymore, other than for nostalgia and my friends list. I should post more but I just don't have much to say lately. I'm sorry, I guess.

But! I do have a Tumblr that I've started using more (I blame okthx completely. She's peer pressuring me to watch Gossip Girl and next is going to be Twilight. NO R.PATTZ, PLZ.) so you should follow me on there if you have one. Not too much real substance over there, but that's fine too. My tumblr is http://littlelea.tumblr.com/ so hit that shit up, if you want.

I'm going to make an effort to update more here, though. I'm heading to Orlando for the weekend tonight, so I will have lots of pictures of me and my beautiful best friend and her wonderful pups to post. So fucking stoked.

( I want lots of things. )

+ The NBA Finals start tonight!!!
+ There's a shit-ton of trees (and this one boy) currently in transit to me from Tampa!!!
+ My new house/car/bowl? All amazing.
+ Payday tomorrow and dinner plans with Grams.
+ Natalia will be home for the weekend and I am ridiculously excited.
+ Ikea on Friday, bff-reuiniting rage with Tal on Saturday, and possibly Miami on Sunday!
+ Driving up to Orlando June 12-24.
+ Brother's coming home June 19.
+ Roadtrip to Atlanta for Asher Roth and Brittany's 20th birthday in August.

Things are going good, with the exception of boys with girlfriends that like to fuck with my head. I've been having some pretty wonderful girl hangs lately, and it feels kind of nice to not always be around boys. I still need to get off my ass and apply for a second job, but that will need to wait til after the weekend. I'm not letting myself get stressed about anything because what's the point? I'm taking shit as it comes for once and it feels kinda nice. I need to burn a new cd for my car, which also needs to be cleaned desperately!

Not the best picture but whatev, everyone knows what a Volkswagen Golf looks like right? I still need to name my new baby but I guess things like that take time. I put 280 miles on it in two days and I'm already planning roadtrips. I fucking love it.

Things I do not love: the rain for the past two weeks, my runny nose, the fact that I'm at work, the stupid ATM not accepting my cash deposit this morning, no one ever having change for a $100 (why do I even have hundreds?), living so far away from all the people I really want to hang out with (I'm looking at you, Jobeth), did I mention the rain?, gas prices, and toothaches (where the fuck's my insurance card already?).

My birthday was nice, this boy bought me a bottle and we got all drunk and watched "Don't Be A Menace". Spent Friday night at Sarah's house since we weren't allowed to go to the bar, but Ring of Fire's always fun. This weekend was pretty horrible and emotionally draining. I didn't go to work yesterday for a bunch of reasons, but mostly because I wanted to sleep and have a day that I didn't spend crying. I drove down to Boomer's and Val and I rode the go-karts because I needed to blow off some steam (it was either go-karts or a shooting range). I had never driven a go-kart before so it was all sorts of exciting! I was basically drift queen of the south 2k9 and I want to go back!

On a more positive note, I think I found somewhere to live. I'm going to see it tomorrow with Billy to make a definitely decision. It's a super good location, affordable, and just generally really nice. The landlord is super nice so I'm pretty excited about it. I'd move in June 1st and I really can't explain how happy that makes me. I need out of my grandmother's house soon or else I'm going to have a nervous breakdown.

I'm getting my shit together about school, thanks to persisting by my family. I still have to request transcripts and file my FASFA, but I'm tentatively starting in fall. I'm going to go to BCC (I refuse to call it "Broward College", whatever) because it's cheaper and closer than FAU. I'm going to go part-time (two night classes at North campus, and one online class) for fall and full-time for spring and summer. Depending on my financial aid, I might just work part-time and go to school full-time after this year, so I can double-up on classes and get back on track. I want to graduate ASAP so I can just join the fucking Peace Corps.

So hopefully, with these school and housing related breakthroughs, I will have a car soon. I've got my fingers-crossed big time for everything to go off without a hitch, but I am being realistic about it. I've got a lot of moves to make in the meantime. Gotta get on the grind and get my shit together, end of story.

...and just when I started making progress again, I saw a boy with a backwards hat in a black Tiburon and I thought I was going to hyperventilate. God damn.